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Hızlıca son gunlerde neler oldu yazayım:

* Bugun Noel, M’nin annesine ve babasına + Ingiltere M’nin annesine ve babasına Hallmark’ın sitesinden cok hos e-card gonderdim. Annemlerin adına gonderdim cunku onlar gonderecekleri kartpostalları birturlu postaneye goturemediler. M’nin annesi cok sevmis, guzel haber.

* M anneleriyle ben ise annemlerle izin kullanıyoruz. İzmir’in cok sıcak olacagına dair ümitlerim ozellikle bugun suya dustu. İzmir bugun cok soguktu.

*Kemeraltı Ambar’dan yine birsuru elbise aldım. Süper indirimler vardı. Eskiden 70 ytl ye aldıgım elbiseyi bugun 30 ytl’ye aldım. Eskiden ambar gayet zevksiz bi imaja sahipti gozumde ama artık degisti : )

* Pazar gunu E’nin yanındaydım.Abla kardes birlikte cok guzel zaman gecirdik. Taksim’e gittik, Saray’da tavuksuyu corba ictik, Beyoglu Pasajı’nda elbiselere baktık, aksam da Acun’un 50cent’li ozel programını izledik. IT Crowd’ ilk kez izledim. Guzeldi. Abla kardes birlikte olmak cok guzeldi.

* Yillar sonra ilk kez resim tab ettirdim. 300 tane resmi orta boy bastırdım Kemeraltı’nda ve 110 ytl tuttu. Umarım fotogracı adam kendi belgelerim’ine kaydettiği dosyamı siler. Cunku resimleri alınca guzelmiş fotografların dedi, cok hosuma gitmedi bu yorum! Ama fotografları elime alıp bakmak cok guzeldi. İyi ki bastırdık, bilgisayarda bakmaktan cok daha zevkli.

* Askimi ozledim!

* Dun Es ve Se ile bulustuk. Vestel’den konustuk bol bol. Kızlarla bulusmak, Es ile alısveris yapmak inanilmaz keyifliydi!

*Bu aksam ATV,de Avrupa Yakası’nı izledim. Cok eglenceliydi.. Kac ay once izledim en son hatırlamıyordum :(

* Annemle pazartesi gunu kuafore gittik. Benim saclarımı 5.7 ye boyadı ve baya koyu oldu, içlerinden aldı inceltti, birazcik kısalttı ve daha cok kat verdi. Ben fönü begenmediğim icin memnun ayrılmadım. Ama annemin sacları gercekten eskisine gore hic iyi olmadı. Annem hic mutlu degildi salondan cıkarken ne yazık ki. Dedi ki (ve içime oturdu bu sozleri) kuafor adam onu onune cocuk gibi oturtup usturayla hiç ölçüp biçmeden uğraşmadan aceleyle kesmis ve cocuklugundan beri boyle usturalı hatır hutur sacını kesen olmamış. Biz oraya gittiğimizde yusuf bey yoktu (annemin sacını gecen sefe super kesmişti) onun yerine baskasını kabul etmek cok kotu oldu. Ordan cıkıp gitmeliydik. Annemin de benim de icimizden gelmeyen seyi yapmamiz, iç sesimize kulak verip onu yapmamız lazım. Cunku önsezimiz gayet güçlü. Ben iç sesime cok kulak veriyorum.

* Annis, Efes & Sandy ile soba basında mayısmak cok zevkli! : )

Hamilelik zor(mus)

Dun aksam M’nin bi arkadasina yemegine gittik. Esi hamile ve iki yasindaki kizlari cook tatli. Esi 35 yasinda ve hamileligi cok zor gidiyor. Doktoru ona 10 hafta boyunca istirahat etmesi gerektigini soylemis. Yemek yapmak, egilip kalkmak, uzun sure oturmak, yurumek, araba/ucak yolculugu yapmasi tamamiyle yasaklanmis. Morali bozuktu o yuzden. 10 hafta nasil sIkIlmadan durabilsin ki? Ve isin diger kotu yani uzun sure issiz kalmis ve tam yeni ise baslamisti simdi ise gidemeyecek cook uzun bi sure. Yeni ise girip 2 ay sonra ben hamileyim deyip 1 yil ise gidememek isyerinde tuh keske almasaydik ise dedirtir buyuk ihtimalle. Danimarka’da sistem guzel ama. Cocuk dogduktan sonra esi de izin alabilir, ‘paternity leave’ olarak geciyor. Ve boylece anne ise erken gidebilir. Ama daha doguma cok var. Mart’in ortasinda dogum olacak normalde. Ama bebek simdiden gelmek istiyormus. 36 hafta mi ne o kadarlik olana kadar gelmemesi lazim bu yuzden de annesi haftalarca kipirdamadan yatacak.

Cocuk sahibi olmak icin gercekten her seye deger mi? Boyle seyleri gorunce kafamda annelige karsi soru isaretleri artiyor.

Ama iki yasindaki kizlari biz aksam sohbet ederken melek gibi uyuyup kalinca, dayanilmaz tatli oldu. Ve de elinde bir minik kasikla uyuyup kalmis, diger elinde de ‘dyn’ yani kucuk yorganiyla.. Ben onu ta daha bebekken o minik yorganla dolasirken biliyorum. Cok sirin bi kiz ve eger kolay dogum ve oyle tatli, iyi huylu bir kiz bebek garantisi varsa ben de cocuk istiyorum ilerde ;)

dudak ve el koruma programi

Edit 17.12.08: Dun aksam Matas’tan Blistex’in Daily Lip Conditioner’ini (cok memnunum! Ferah ve etkili. Tadi cok hos degil tabi ki ama yararli olacagindan eminim!) ve Lypsyl’in Overnight – Intensive Care’ini aldim. Onu dun gece yatmadan once surdum. Baya yogun ve tadi oyle hissedilen turden degil. Minicik bir sey zaten, minik minik her gece yatmadan once surulebilir. Artik dudaklarimin yolunmasi icin bi sebep kalmadi (umariiiiimmmmm!)

Baslik okuyanlara sacma gelecek ama hemen aciklayayim..

Annemin yillardan beri kurtulamadigi kotu aliskanligi dudaklarin icini isirma ve at dudagin kuruyan ic kismini koparma aliskanligi ne yazik ki ta ilkokul gunlerimden beri benim de bi parcam. Aciyan, bazen kanayan alt dudagim ne yazik ki her gun inceliyor.  Yazlari daha sorunsuz ama kislari, ozellikle hava kuru ve sogukken dudaklarim  kuruyor ve ellerimle kuruyan deriyi kopariyorum. Bu aliskanliktan hala vazgecemedigim icin kendime ne kadar kizsam da ne yazik ki hala engel olabilmis degilim. Ve tirnaklarimin yanindaki etleri de ellerimle kopariyorum. Aciyor ve kaniyor veya kirmizi ve cirkin gorunuyor. Ellerimin kurumasina izin vermemeye calsiyorum. Ve uzun sure ellerimi actimamistim ama son zamanlarda yinelemeye basladi bu huy da. Yeni bi ulke ve dile ve is ortamina ve eve alisma surecinin stresi kendini bu sekilde gostermeye basladi sanirim.

Sonuc olarak artik bu konuda ciddi bi seyler yapmam gerekiyor. Webde arastirma yaptim bugun ve dudak dokusunu koparmak o dokunun kendini surekli olarak yenilemeye calismasi kansere sebep olabilirmis. Agiz kanseri olursam ne yaparim, korkunc.

Ayni huydan sikayet edenlerin webde yazdiklari cok sinIrli blogdan/siteden genelde kadinlarin bu aliskanlikla mucadelede dudak kurulugunu onleyici krem turu seyleri kullandigini gordum ve en cok bahsedilen birkac tanesini yazdim. Ben de alicam bunlardan birkacini, en kisa surede. Belki haftaya turkiye´ye gittigime.. Mmmm turkiye’ye haftaya gittgimde yazmayi cok seviyorum.. Icim isiniyor resmen :)

Ve blogumda yaziyorum ki bunu kendi kendime verdigim sozu tutayim bir daha bunlari yasamak/yazmak/dusunmek zorunda kalmayayim! Benim icin biraz utandigim bi sir cunku bu..

Evet asagidaki listedeki urunleri denicem.. (bunlar dudak icin. el icin henuz urun arastirmasi yapmadim. O daha cok aliskanlik ve kararlilikla cozulebilecek bi sey. Dudaklarim ise gercekten kuruyor ve kanserden korkuyorum)

• Blistex daily lip conditioner (bilyeli ve karamelli olani)
• Madecassol (eczaneden)
• Weleda’nin Everon lip balm’i
• Burt’s bees lip balm (tr’de olmayabilir)
• Mad Gab’s (dagcilarin kullandigi)
• La roche posay dudak koruyucu

En son urunu meripoint.blogspot da gordum, digerlerini itsbeauty.com’da. Son yazdigim adreste hos, kizlar arasinda forum var.

Arasira bakarim iki link de hos.

drowning in the midst of information

So simple.. I just want to change my wordpress theme.  I downloaded a them on my computer and all I have to do is to activate it on my blog. Well, I cannot upload it on my wordpress. I have been checking online info how to do it, and I just cannot find out how to do that. I am annoyed!

I don’t want to invest much time on this but it seems that I have a long way to go. I must get a better underdstanding of CSS and customizing my blog.

There is so much info and it takes so much time to sort them.

turkce olsun

Edit 15.12.08: Bu yazi blogger’dan import edildi.

WordPress deki bloguma o kadar kaptirmisim ki.. Burda neler yazidigimi unutmus gitmisim.. Orda yazdiklarimi Ingilizce yazmaya ve public tutmaya, burda daha cok Turkce yazmaya karar verdim..
Tek blogu yeteri kadar dolduramazken nasil iki blogla bas edicem bilmiyorum.
Ama denicem!

nazdeniz.blogspot.com diye bi site gordum. Turk bi kadin kizi icin blog yapmis. Guluk hayatlarinin, dogumgunu partilerinin, bayramlarin, haftasonlarinin detaylari bol resimlerle suslenmis. Bir cocuk icin ne buyuk bi hediye. Ilerde buyudugunde geri donup annesinin neler hissettigini, onu nasil sevidigini, cocukken neler soyledigini, hangi kitaplari okudugunu hatirlamasi icin blogu acmasi yeterli olacak. Bence bir anne babanin cocuguna verebilecegi en guzel hediye. Umarim cocuklari bu sansi takdir ederler.

Ordaki kitaplardan biri Citir Citir Felsefe serisinin Ozgur olan Ve Ozgur Olmayan kitabiydi. Keske benim cocuklugumda da boyle kitaplar olsaydi. Ben cocukken de annemin kitaplari alacak daha cok maddi gucu olsaydi.

Tam bunlari yazarken Elif aradi. Dun sinemaya gitmislerdi ya. Babam cuzdanini dusurmus orda ve Elif bugun aramis cuzdana bakar misiniz diye. Gittiklerinde bos cuzdani vermisler babama.. Igrenc insanlar babamin parasini ve kartlarini almislar icinden. Icinde 400 e yakin parasi varmis babamin. Yazik yani kirk yilda bir bi sinemaya gittiler baslarina gelene bak.
Guya bayram ve guya Muslumanlar Allah in sevabi icin kurban kesiyorlar.
Peki kim caliyor bu paralari?!
Yaziklar olsun, cok uzuldum babacima..

evden uzakta..

Kruban Bayrami nedeniyle Elif Izmir’de annemlerin yaninda ve ben burda Kopenhagdayim.. Onlarla birlikte olamadigim icin uzuluyorum.. Yarin Michael da Izmir’e gidecek.. Keske ben de tatilimi hazir ELif ordayken kullanabilseydim.. Simdi Elif aradi ve annem, babam, keriman teyzem ve Pinar’la birlikte Issiz Adam’a gitmek uzere arabada olduklarini soyledi. Canim o kadar cok o arabada olmak istedi ki! Benim tatilime de az kaldi ama kardesimle sadece iki gun gorusebilecek olmak buruk yapiyo icimi..

Ailemi ozledim..

En son hava ne zaman gunesliydi burda bilmiyorum. Gunesin cikmasini da ozledim..

Izmir i ozledim..

Dogal ve hakli olarak…

Ozellikle de bizimkiler arabaya dolusup sinemaya giderken!…

on a diet.. igen igen oh

I have put on weight recently. The delicious company cantinas don’t help me! SO hating my big tummy, I have been thinking about liposuction. My sister and mom are %100 against the idea and I also started to think that it’s too risky. Besides I am only 52 kg and all I try to do is lose 3-4 kilos and get rid of my funny tummy. When people are succeeding in losing 100kilos on TV shows such as “the biggest loser” why can’t I just do more sports, eat less and manage that without surgical operation. So, I was reading realage.com yesterday and I decided that I should lose weight and most importantly get rid of my tummy by doing sports and staying away from chips&dips. I am a healthy liver anyway, so I don’t know what else i can do. I can only cut my portions and stay away from chips. I am not eationg chocolate, sweet stuff anyway. So the real tough thing is to do local exercise. That is really tough. I am going to start at company’s gym.  They have a personal trainer. I should get consultation from him. I can’t change my genes, I have this tummy as a gift (!) from my family. I am thin and yet yes I have a tummy. Like a beer gut.. Spare tire!

Yesterday I cooked salmon in paper.. It was very healthy, lots of vegetables. It was too salty though, because of the Thai fish sauce. I will be more careful with using it next time. Morten was going to make thai food with it, it is good that we already tested in my fish dish. Now he can take less risk! : )

I also bought green lentilles and bulgur, nuts (hazelnuts, almonds,walnuts yummy). Healthy living is goona rock in our kitchen from now on.

Today I weighted myself: 52kg

Target: 49kg.. I can make it!

Tummy tough, that’s the most difficult..

Try www.realage.com it has many good recipes and advices for healthy living..long living.. staying sharp..

liking the spotlight

Today I was in a meeting all day long.. From 9 am to 4pm. That’s a whole working day in Denmark :) Not too bad! I used to say whole day meeting for 8.30am-8pm. Big improvement! ;)

We were separated in groups and we did presentations. I felt very good when I represented our team and I really like being there doing a presentation for 30-35 people. Being the only non-Danish, it was a challenge to get understood clearly or appreciated. I think I made it. It was an important step because I am new and I don’t speak Danish. So it was cool to be there and do my presentation the way I am used to. The way I did in Japan, in England, in Turkey.. I like the spotlights :)

I am working with really nice people. That’s cool. I especially like my manager’s attitude. He is very pro, young and has no ego. He has a very nice tone when talking to people. Serious but not annoying. Just the opposite. There is only one problem with him though, he is expecting me to speak Danish in meetings. Imagine today we were 35 people in the meeting and they spoke English just because of me. I think it is good for the business because we deal with the customer in English&French etc. Never in Danish. So it is a good way of pulling people off from their comfort zones. It is good that they feel obliged to speak English. But it is also inevitable for them to adress each other in their mother language. If same thing happened in Turkey, I am sure many people would say things in Turkish. But it is just impossible for meto be ready by January 1st, 2009. Business Danish, following a meeting, expressing myself in Danish; best case could be in June-July. Not earlier.. Let’s see how I will deal with it. In any case, it was a good opportunity today that I did a good presentation, now people at least know that I can do things. So maybe they won’t mind speaking in English anymore.. Maybe they’ll find it worth for my sake to go on English..

That’s the cool thing about Danish work culture, nobody takes himself too seriously. People see it as just a job and they don’t have this “i am the boss here” attitude. Although I find many side effects of the Jantelov, in many cases there are advantages related to it.

People here could be more oriented to self promoting or entertaining themselves/other more, I mean be less boring.. Jantelov makes them limited. How can they be competitive or ambitious if the law functions so well? In any case, in the work life, between people, there is a good balance. It is nice to work in this kind of environment. Maybe, from the  company’s point of  view, it is not that good. They could have exploited people more like they do in Turkey, this way they would generate more money. But here, they prefer to have nice, easy, comfortable work environment. It has good sides for me, because I am an employee. But if i had established my own business I would have second thoughts about Jantelov and Danish work environment. I think my business would be like Maersk, which has the worst reputation in Denmark because of its Vestel-like attitude. Just close though, can never never be that bad! It was the China in Izmir!

european cinema awards

Last night we went to the 21th European films awards’ ceremony. It was a cool event. I saw the Statesminister of Denmark, plus lots of Danish/European movie starts. I did not many of those celebrities but it was more meaningful after they presented/received awards.

The host of the night Michael Bertelsen was funny in a away but his self sarcastic jokes seemed too Danish. Morten said he was a very well known and liked TV talk show man in Denmark. Wish he did not have to present the event in English. I was also suprised that most of the people who have received these awards could not deliver a speech in English. How come that all these people has problems with English? Something I am so comfortable with, even take granted for, caused lots of stress to many people yesterday.

There were some moments where the presenters seemed very amateurish. It was far away from being Oscars, or Emmy awards night. Americans are really comfortable on stage, and they like/know how to entertain themselves/others. European culture proved to be very stiff after all.

There wee very good and interesting movies last night. Gomorra, Il Divo, Hunger are some of the movies that I would like to find/watch asap.

Walking on the Red Carpet, dressing nice, seeing movie celebrities, watching those movie trailers before awards were given, the atmosphere, people around us, enjoyind red wine, the ambiance there again and again, seeing Nikolaj Lee and Mads Mikkelsen, asking them for photos, their warm and modest approach, it was all in all a magical night. Morten and I really thought it was worth the money (1500DKK, after special discount from Lifein.dk) and we enjoyed ourselves. It was like for 7 hours (including the party) we felt ourselves in a different world where movie producers, actors, directors, audience were altogether having fun. Stepping off the red carpet and getting on metro felt weird, as if I also was now a celebrity lol

Walking on the red carpet was really exciting, when we were walking the photographers were looking around to see some celebrity faces, but who cares, I had my moment too.

Like Anilao, holding Morten’s hand and looking at the beautiful sea creatures with our snorkels, that moment, I also add the moment on the red carpet walking hand in hand in the same category. I can’t imagine how great it must be for those who really draw attention, it must be high adrenalin and ego.

The only bad thing about last night is thatI could not see Lars von Trier. I was looking forward to meeting him too.

I love movies and I love last night..

It was simply put, a beautiful evening with all the great ambiance..

working abroad

Today I am feeling down. Working abroad has its rewards, its magic moments. But today I am feeling somewhat isolated and lonely due to language barrier.

At our business unit  some 30 people are working. In my department we are 12 people. And I am the only non-Danish one. So to speak, the only “different”, foreigner, non-Danish speaking, Englih-preferring person. Most of the time I don’t care about it. It is just a work day where I talk to people in English and everybody understands me without any problems. We can communicate in English. But today we had this Friday lunch for the whole business unit and it was supposed to be cosy (it was for them, not for me). They all laughed and exchanged jokes whereas I sat there with a cup of coffee in my hand. Forcing myself to smile. Pretending that it was ok. It was sad for me not to drag the conversation where I wanted, in the language I wanted.

A few times conversation continued in English but did not last long. People have an instant drive to switch to their mother language. Who can blame them?

In any case, I tried a few times but this week I was really bored so I did not even try to try more. I felt exhausted with all this me trying, others being so comfortable.

Wish there were some other non-Danish in my department. Or wish I could just speak Danish tomorrow. WIsh I could be fluent in 2 months or something like that.

Not speaking the language, staying away from the small talk stuff, is just the most annoying thing ever. I feel limited, not comfortable. I miss my work environment at Vestel. It was so great to have all these young people who spoke my language and funny people.

All I can do is to learn Danish as fast as possible..

Winter is cold and days are dark..   I miss some sunlight…