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It doesn’t take so much, you know, to feel happy.. But to feel a constant happiness over a few hours, you know, that is not easy..

Morten went to Copenahagen yesterday, leaving me in Horsens with his parents. He came back today. His interview at NN went well, he’s close to the second round and hopefully to get the deal closed. And he came back this afternoon, I am married to him and I missed him during here some 30 hour cycle when he was not around. So when he entered from the door, I was happy.

Then in the evening, we went to buy some new movies and chips and dips. Oh, the moment we bought some 5-6 movies and went to Fotex to buy tacos and dips, the process of choosing the best chips and dips, to choose our evening redwine, that’s something that will make me happy. And I felt so happy.

We came home, his parents had prepared very nice dinner..We drank redwine and chatted about so many things. Mostly about interviews and jobs. I felt happy with such a cosy evening..

Then I talked to Elif and Michael, they are just back from London. They were excited, Elif was very happy, so was I to hear her.

How much does it take to feel happy in your heart, feel the warmness of some good news, some hopes, some good dips and chips!

I feel happy tonigth..

More than many days and nights..

It is great to go and buy movies, then think about the moment when you actually start watching them. And prepare your dip, settle in your sofa and voila..

Small things make me happy..

Of course, there are things on my mind. In Izmir, my mum is home alone tonight. Then can turn the whole happy picture sad all of a sudden.I feel guilty for not being there, for not reaching her my hand, not being able to be around and make her happy.

Small things make her happy.

If Elif and I were there, she’d be the happiest person on the planet now. We both know that. She misses us. I miss her a lot too. All her efforts, all her pain inside.

Happiness is easy and so difficult. Things we can do and we cannot do. Only I can wish that she’ll wait for me so that I can visit her in Izmir and compensate for my absence, if possible.

Life is hard.

Being married to a foreigner brings its own risks and perils.

I am happy because I am excited about the new movie I’ll watch with M.

I miss my mum and she’s home alone.

Splitted thougths and feelings.

Small things make us happy.