grip/nezle/ates yine mi

DUn aksam bogazim aciyordu ve bugun 7.30 uyandigimda atesim vardi. En sevmedigim sey atesimin cikmasi ve daha gecen ay Horsens’tan sonra yeniden grip olmak igrenc. Aslinda Horsens’taki virustu ve doktor grip vs demedi. Ama Morten ve annesi teshisi boyle koymuslardi. Hatta sinir oldum ben grip degilim bu garip bi virus diyorum onlar benden ve hastaligimdan bahsederken grip diyorlardi. Bugunku de oyle bi sey. Dizlerim, butun vucudum agri icinde ve usuyorum. Kahvaltida her zaman sorunsuz yedigim peyni ekmegimi bile bitiremedim. Elif de ilginc Izmir’e ayni sekilde grip olmus. Sanirim virusu birbirimize Skype’tan gecirdik! Uzun sure yattim ve dinlendim. TV izledim. Animal planet, Oprah Winfrey (tesaduf bugun law of attraction’cilar konuguydu ve kendini iyi hissetmekten bahsediyorlardi. Oysa ben onlari zor izliyordum usumekten). Sonra aciktim ve Morten’in bana patates haslamasini istedim, bir de derece almasini. Baya uzun surdu gidip gelmesi ve gercekten actim. Her ne kadar midem hicbir seyi kaldirmayacak durumda olsa da cocuklugumdan beri mutlaka annem atesli oldugumda yemek getirince yerdim. Ozellikle domatesli sehriye corbasi, ya da tavuklu sehriye corbasi hasta menulerim arasinda favorimdir. Ne yazik ki burda bana o corbalari yapabilecek kimse yok bugun. Izmir’e gittigimde annemden tariflerini isticem. Morten dijital derecelerden almis. Super, agizdan 10 sn de atesi bildiriyor. 38.9 ile basladik ve Morten cihaz bozuktur diye kendisi denedi o 37′nin altinda cikti. Bana o kadar da kotu degilsin merak etme, ben hastayken daha kotu oluyodum, daha kotu gorunuyodum dedi. Hastayken duymak istemedigim sey, aslinda cok da kotu gorunmedigimdir. Hastayim, simaricam, ve kotuyum! Benim olaya yaklasimim bu! Morten patatesleri hasladi ve getirdi. Sonra portakal ve elma da yedim ve daha iyi hissettim. Ama yine de atesi yuksek oldugu ve TV’den, yatmaktan asiri sIkIldigim icin ben de iki tane Nurofen aldim. 40 dakika icinde kendimi iyi hissetmeye basladim. Merete’nin mailini ve blogumu yaziyorum iste. Hastayken yatmak tam bi iskence. Ve ilac super, hemen terlemeye basladim. Elbisemi degistirmem gerekecek kadar cok terledim ve su an daha iyiyim.

Uff simdi Morten hapsirdi, umarim ona da gecirmemisimdir. Hos ben hapsirmiyorum sadece bogaz agrim ve atesim var ama..

Haftasonu Christinana’ya gittik. Guzel bi gundu. Julie’yla yillar once soguk bir gunde gittigimiz Christiana’ya bu kez Morten’la guzel ve gunesli bir gunde gittik. Cumartesi guzel gecti. Dun de solaryuma gittik ve ordan cikip cok guzel golu olan bi parka gittik Frederiksberg’de. Orasi cok ruzgarliydi ve galiba orda asil usuttum.

Boyle iste.. Uzun ve stresli donemlerden sonra, insan omuzlarinda yuk kalkinca daha mi direncsiz oluyo ne..

Neyse, Izmir’e gitmeyi dort gozle bekliyorum. Persembe sabahi insalah ordayim.. Annemler beni karsilamaya gelecek. Dun skype’ta Elif cok tatliydi. Bana bi daha ne zaman birbirimize oylesine oturmaya gelicez, sen kopenhag’a yerlesiyosun, artik her seyi onceden planlicaz, hic birbirimizi canimiz isteyince goremicez diye sitem etti. O kadar hakli ki. Ve ben ayni konuya o kadar uzuluyorum ki. Bizim butun cocuklugumuz birlikte gecti. Birbirini bu kadar seven, tutan kizkardes yoktur herhalde. Ve aray mesafelerin, butcelerin, planlarin girmesi gercekten cok uzuyo beni. Hep aklimda ve constant bi endise, huzun hali yaratiyo. Keske bi cozumu olsa.. Eger michael’la elif istanbul’da kalirsa biz de bi kac yil sonra Istanbul’a tasinirsak o zaman komsu oluruz yeniden. Birbirimize is cikisi ugrar, yemek yer, cay iceriz. Simdi tum iliskimiz, paylastgimiz skype’ta. Elif gecen carsambadan beri izmir de ve hergun en az 1-2 saat skype ta konustuk. Cok guzel bunlari internetten de olsa paylasmak.. Ama yetmeyecek.. Ve hayat gercekten boyle olmak zorunda miydi. Bu kadar mesafe, farkli ulkeler, farkli sehirler.. Ailemi cok seviyorum… Izmir’e gitmek cok guzel olacak..

big plan

It still seems incredible to me.. One week ago I was feeling as down as it could be.. No job.. No hopes.. No plan.. But a lot of regrets and question marks.. I was asking myself constantly; was it really worth to quit PWC to go to France? Was it worth to come back from France and start at Citibank and then get to Vestel in Turkey? What about WBMN? What about moving to Denmark? I was feeling so bad my past choices just because I did not know what to expect in Denmark.

Well, I don’t have my residence permit yet. I don’t have my work permit yet. And, although it has become only 2 months since I arrived to Denmark, I was already kind of in panic. And bingo! Two tough interviews and now I have a great job.

Now all my past choices seem meaningful.. I am so grateful.. And from now on, whatever happens to me in my new job, I will never ask myself the same old questions. I will burn the negative vibe questions folder in my head. It’s over. I like all my decisions and it’s time to enjoy.

It was a good idea to quit PWC audit; cause I never liked accounting anyway. It is boring. It was a good idea to go to France because I like french language and culture. And guess what, FLS posted this job only for French speaking candidates. It was after all a good idea to work at Vestel. FLS chose me because I have 2 years experience with B2B sales, customer management and my exposure to technical problems when I was there. It was also a good idea to work for WBMN, FLS was impressed with all the countries I visited and worked at. It was good to come to Denmark because job conditions are way much better here than most of the world standards.

After all, all things added up and I got this because it is a sum of all the things I did so far.

No regrets.

I regretted because I did not what was next. Now that I see that “next” thing, which is “today”, then I should only be happy for all my decisions.

After all, it seems that there is a big plan out there for me and puzzle is going to look good finally.

I am so glad that I got this opportunity.

One of my cousins had told me once, Asli -you always got the rotten apple. You were wrong then. I believe to be a lucky person.

Look, I hate HR people. They know everything about how to categorize you. They can put you in boxes, they can measure you, they can see the real you inside you?! That’s all bullshit. Crap. at FLS, the people who conducted my interview, they were nice, smart and they asked questions that really mattered. No bullshit. Just tough, bare realities. That’s where I wanted to be. Smart engineers managing business. No HR guys measuring your body language etc. I was so lucky that there was no woman interviewer either. I was there with three guys. Bingo, the way I would like.

Look I had four interviews in Denmark. I got two job offers. The interviews I had with women only, two interviews I did not get the job. Other two interviews, conducted by only men, I got both jobs. That’s amazing is not it.Well, surely, I don’t know what would have happenned if there were 1 guy plus 1 woman or 1 guy 2 girls etc.. But who cares.. Now my career is back on track. This kind of job I would not have found in Turkey. I am so lucky to be at the right place at the right time.

I remember calling Mr PJ when the ad was posted. I asked him if I could send my application without speaking Danish and he was little concerned. He said “ok send but, we do the small talk in Danish. so we look for people who can speak fluent danish”. It was such a bad news for me. And I had no hope for getting this job. I had no hope that they would choose me.

And yet, things turned out better than I expected.

Good location, good colleauges, good salary and pensions, good vacation..

Things are alright.

And my new manager told me that they have no worries, second hopes about me and that I would be success. How lovely to start with this kind of support.

Good days are these days..

hmmmmm delicious!

the new chapter of my life

Today I got a job offer from FLS! It is like a dream come true. Morten and I are just like drunk from joy. It was my lucky break. This kind of job would not just occur like that. Great timing. I feel so lucky, successful and proud. Today is my day!

Copenhagen, new chapter in my life..

A nice one… :)

happiness

It doesn’t take so much, you know, to feel happy.. But to feel a constant happiness over a few hours, you know, that is not easy..

Morten went to Copenahagen yesterday, leaving me in Horsens with his parents. He came back today. His interview at NN went well, he’s close to the second round and hopefully to get the deal closed. And he came back this afternoon, I am married to him and I missed him during here some 30 hour cycle when he was not around. So when he entered from the door, I was happy.

Then in the evening, we went to buy some new movies and chips and dips. Oh, the moment we bought some 5-6 movies and went to Fotex to buy tacos and dips, the process of choosing the best chips and dips, to choose our evening redwine, that’s something that will make me happy. And I felt so happy.

We came home, his parents had prepared very nice dinner..We drank redwine and chatted about so many things. Mostly about interviews and jobs. I felt happy with such a cosy evening..

Then I talked to Elif and Michael, they are just back from London. They were excited, Elif was very happy, so was I to hear her.

How much does it take to feel happy in your heart, feel the warmness of some good news, some hopes, some good dips and chips!

I feel happy tonigth..

More than many days and nights..

It is great to go and buy movies, then think about the moment when you actually start watching them. And prepare your dip, settle in your sofa and voila..

Small things make me happy..

Of course, there are things on my mind. In Izmir, my mum is home alone tonight. Then can turn the whole happy picture sad all of a sudden.I feel guilty for not being there, for not reaching her my hand, not being able to be around and make her happy.

Small things make her happy.

If Elif and I were there, she’d be the happiest person on the planet now. We both know that. She misses us. I miss her a lot too. All her efforts, all her pain inside.

Happiness is easy and so difficult. Things we can do and we cannot do. Only I can wish that she’ll wait for me so that I can visit her in Izmir and compensate for my absence, if possible.

Life is hard.

Being married to a foreigner brings its own risks and perils.

I am happy because I am excited about the new movie I’ll watch with M.

I miss my mum and she’s home alone.

Splitted thougths and feelings.

Small things make us happy.

Back to Horsens

Last week Copenhagen was our home. We settled down in Lars’ apartment and it was comfortable there. His apartment is at one of those old Copanhangen houses and I liked the atmosphere a lot. Morten’s Nykredit interview ended with a big punch in our stomachs. He was in top 3 and there were 2 jobs available. We are very fed up with HR’s categorizing people. You can never win. If you are smart and anaylitical they are curious if you can be social, if you are social they worry if you can deal with some tough analysis. Either way they are worried, curious and always sceptical. Now he has two interviews; Nordea and Novo. These two places will be good if he gets any of them. Well, he fell in love with Nykredit’s analyst job; mainly because of future career opportunities. I also had a job interview yesterday; at DnB. It went pretty well I must say. The HR lady and boss of the department were really nice people. Let’s see how they thought about me.

Nothing more these days..

I am reading and reading and  watching videos about Palin and Obama. I care so much about who is going to win. McCain is really getting a long way with the help of Palin. Dommage!

Turkiye’de Dogan-Erdogan catismalari devam ediyor. Wall Street dun son yedi yilin en kotu gununu yasadi. Lehman Brothers iflas ettigini acikladi. Ancak TR’de issizligin, enflasyonun artmasi basbakani hic etkilemiyor. O medyayla kavga ediyor, secim kampanyalariyla ugrasiyor. Tek dertleri bir dahaki secimde %50 yi gecmek. Ekonomi kimin umrunda!

jeg prøver…

Kopenhag’da yerlesme cabalarimiz tum hiziyla devam ediyor. Carsamba-Pazar arasi Karen ve Jonas’taydik ve Pazar itibariyle Lars’in dairesine geldik. O Suriye’de ve biz anne ve babasindan evin anahtarlari aldik. 50m2, Kopenhag icin normal sayilacak bir daire. Bize gore kucuk tabi ki ama burdaki eski ev ozelliklerine uygun, aydinlik ve cok tatli bir avluya bakan sirin bir yer. Gelecek pazartesiye kadar burdayiz. Morten bugun usb seklinde laptopa takilan wireless tan aldi. Cok hizli ve problemsiz calisiyor. Ben de bir telefon aldim, Nokia 6120, beyaz. Sadece 1kron! 6 ay boyunca 200kron odicek Morten ve telefonla 200kronluk konusma yapabilicem her ay. Super bi sistem. Turkcell o kadar iyi ve haksiz bir kazanc elde ediyor ki!! Burdaki sistemi cok sevdim, boyle bir telefonu 1krona nasil alabilirdim ki! Saka gibi geliyor. Telefonu aldigimiz icin USB wireless da bize hediye edildi. 3G konusma yapilabiliyo ve Danimarka’da yayginlasmaya baslamis oldukca.

Bugun Secunia’yla is anlasmam sonuclandi. Bana kontrati emaille gonderecekler. Persembe gunu de toplantim var onlarla. Her ne kadar soz versem de orda baslayana kadar baska seyler aramaya devam edicem kesinlikle. GN Resound veya FLDSmidth teki isler daha cok hosuma gitmisti sonucta.

Bugun Morten internette 36×4 luk personality testi (nykredit icin) ben de Antoine Saint-Exupery’nin Den Lille Prins’ini Danca okumaya calistim. Zordu dil ama cok tatliydi. Bu kitabi okumayali cok oldu dogrusu, Lars’in kitaplarini karistirirken iyi ki denk geldim. Ancak sasirdim bir kisim var ve orda Turk bilimadamanin giysileri yuzunden kesfettigi asteroid ciddiye alinmamis da sonra giysilerini degistirdiginde ciddiye alinmis oyle bi sey diyor sanirim. Morten’a cevirtmem lazim o kismi, dancasi cok karisik geldi. Sonra o resimler de eger Turk’u isaret ediyorsa garipti dogrusu. Insanlarin sayilari sevmesi ve kelebek toplar mi yerine kac kardesi varmis sorusu sormasi, o’nun sadece acik veya kapali yilan cizmeyi bilmesi beni gulumsetti. Tatli gozlemler. Eger Dancasi cok zorlayici gelmezse bu kitabi bitirmek istiyorum.

Dun de Fransizca bir kitap buldum Lars’in raflarinda. Victor Hugo’nun Sefilleri’nin basitlestirilmis versiyonu. CD ile kitabi dinleyip, kitaptan takip etmek super. Telaffuzumu canlandirdi dogrusu iyi ki raflara bakmisim! HeheHe

Burda raflarda Leibniz, Rousseau, Latince’ye giris, J.Verne, Homer, Fukuyama vs cok iyi kitaplar buldum. En kisa zamanda kendi evime kendi kitaplarimi getirmek istegi dogdu icime! Danca olanlari okuyamasam da gozumun onunde bu kitaplari, ustelik eski baskilar cok zevkli.

Dun Godfather 1 izledik. Bugun 2′yi izlicez. Ben hep boluk porcuk izlemistim ve aralarina zaman girmisti. Bu kez UCluyu bir haftada bitiricez. Tekrar iki kisi kalmak guzel – mutluyumm!  

Burda CNN e ve BBC ye kavustum nihayet!

updates from Copenhagen

Sarah Palin has been picked as John McCain’s VP candidate. She has been mocking Obama and being sarcastic since then. I have been watching her videos on CNN. One of the D analysts made a good comment about her speech on GOP’s evening: a good political theatre

Turkey-Armenia will have a football match on Sept. 6th and maybe Abdullah Gul will go to Armenia to meet their president. We try to guess if he will really or not. CHP’s Baykal criticized him for this initiative; what a pathetic guy he’s becoming. And as Hincal Uluc says, why don’t we hear anything from our foreign affairs minister, where is he? Georgia vs Russia, Abhaksia (or how is it spelled?) Ossetia, all the region is messed up and we try to make guesses and wait for Erdogan. Where is this foreign affairs minister and what’s his name, anybody heard about him? Today I met an Armenian guy, he said a cold hi. That’s a shame coutries’ politics affect people’s behaviours and first impressions. I have nothing against meeting an Armenian. So they should not either.

Morten and I are now staying at Karen&Jonas’ place now. We left Horsens yesterday. A chapter is over now. Horsens stay; our running by the beautiful seaside, morten’s parents company, good food, comfortable life; all is back in the history now. We got our suitcases and took the train. I like being on the go with morten. It is exciting and full of surprises. Yeah I defintely being on trips (for whatever reason) with Morten. It feels right. K&J, they are really cool guys. Their apartment is medium sized cute place in Copenhagen. Especially, their piano room looks impressive. I have never met real musicians of this kind. For ex Karen is organizing the Snoop concert tonight and previously this week she was on George Michael conert!! It is a different world. Jonas is going to gigs in different towns. He is a jazz pianist, cool. I like being in Copenhagen. It feels just right. I took 1A bus from downtown and came to their place. When I was waiting for the bus with so many stylish girls and guys, I felt good about being in this city of cool people.

I have been watching lost episodes recently. I finished season 1 and trying to download season 2. It is a shame that i didn’t get season 2-3-4 from ilker abi. He had all of them in HD quality almost. I regret so badly that i only got season 1 from him. Feb 2009, people will start watching season 5 and i am still around season 1-2. Stakkels mig. I really like what I have watched so far. It is exciting, thrilling, captivating.

I got my first job offer today from an IT company. I will hear from them regarding salary tomorrow. I hope it will be a good one! I will keep you posted.

It was my mummy’s b-day yesterday. ELif and I sent her casablanca and white rosas via vivacicek’s online service. They were so fast, i finished ordering online and my mum already had flowers within 20 minutes. Sounds amazing, I know. My mum was very happy to get these flowers and that was the least we could do. I was upset about not being with her on this special day. Anyway we’ll cover for it on October. Happy birthday annecim!