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..is what I am lacking.. My mum said the other day that I am wasting my intelligence and my skills because I am doing a well-known regular job. I am abroad, miles and miles away from home. I am itrying to get interviews from politicians and CEO’s and I am working for a small media agency in the UK. I hate to hear that she is disapointed or let me put forward it like this; she is little anxious that when I will have 30 years I will not have a prestigious job. She is worrying about my future, because I was a very successful student always on dean’s list and on scholarships.. Now she is comparing me to those others who were not as successful as me and who have stable jobs and incomes in Turkey. Her fears and worries are contagious because I started to feel the same way.. Although I know that everybody’s dying to have job like mine, a lot of travelling, independence, meeting new people, trying all sorts of foods and going to the most beautiful beaches etc. deep in everybody’s heart there lies a desire to be secure and safe.. Going to the same office, seeing same people, eating almost same things every week, going out to lunch with same coleagues, talking about the same workd routine, gossiping about the boss, such things are what people hate but what people are addicted to. Many people are crazy about independent jpbs but when they have to give up their beloved homes and hit the roads then the difficult part starts.. I am fortunately doing this job with my husband . Otherwise working far away from home, my friends, and especially away from my sister and parents would be really difficult. I like to have this experience, it teaches so much about dealing with people and realising how difficult it is for a Turk in Southeast Asia, I feel like I can survive anywhere..My mum’s concerns should not demoralize me but is it easy? A mum’s bravo always makes happy and if she is not happy it ruins everything.. Let’s see what time will bring.. Indepence vs safe job.. Adventure vs stability… Travelling vs office job.. Meeting cool people vs hanging out with the same folks for many years.. Living the life at the fullest vs making your family happy